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The Paralysis of Beginning

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Filed under A Beautiful Mess, Home.Food.Garden, Thoughts on life

We’ve been home for a week.  During this time we’ve had our first taste of summer – literally. We have started harvesting cucumbers, zucchini, just a couple handfuls of raspberries and tomatoes, and, wait for it, two blueberries! Jam making has commenced as well: Apricot, Vanilla, White Wine and Strawberry Thai Herb.  Our lovely and creative housemate, Beth, helped with these and now we take a breather before this weekend’s Plum Cardamom followed by a Tomato Sauce Extravaganza in a couple weeks.

Part of me longs to bake, dig, and organize – engage my hands and senses, leaving my academic side out of it.  Already, a whole new set of shelves were installed under our stairs. The space wasn’t being used efficiently, so my activator/achiever strengths kicked in and voila, more storage.

 

It is a wonderful way to tune into summer: Sweating over a stove at 10 o’clock at night just like both of my grandmothers once did a generation ago.  Not sure if they would’ve had the wine glass in hand, nevertheless, there is something calling me to this.

 

 

However, there is also something hastily beckoning me to Fall – to read textbooks, plan syllabi, and create lessons and assignments that are engaging and relevant. When I got home part of me longed to dive in but I just couldn’t start, not even on jam. Read More »

The Evolution of our Homestead

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Something rare is happening in Southern California – it’s raining.  Due to that circumstance, the promised vlog didn’t happen. However that didn’t stop me from thinking of something creative to share with you.  I’m actually MORE excited to share this post with you.

We’ve started working on our yard again… well, we’ve continued in the ever expanding project that is the back half of our property.  Spring is in the air, and amongst all of the turmoil that is going on in the world, I must forge on with my own little plot of it.  I do this to remember my part on this earth and not get lost in it while remembering the stories of my neighbors near and far.

My friend Leah said last week, “I love coming to your house because there is always something new popping up.”  Translation: You all are nuts and just keep working on your yard/house/life. : )

That got me thinking as I saw this picture from 2 years ago – Good grief, our yard looked like this 2 years ago:

This is a dear friend’s bridal shower at my home.  Even though this was a lovely day, I am struck by the vast emptiness of our yard.  Our lone compost bin was the only sign of sustainable life.

Just a matter of months later, after a year of mapping and planning (and demolishing the inside of our house), we let the grass die and started working on a more intentional outdoor space.

This was – hands down – the dirtiest day of my life bar none (remember that show?).  Our intentional life was getting messier and messier as we tried to think of a space without grass and sans a $100 a month water bill.

Nate built these two planters and the evolutionary process was well under way. Read More »

Vulnerable Post (TED video)

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Today I was keenly aware of the scene from Julie and Julia where Julie comes home from a bad day at work and says that even though she’s had a bad day she knows if eggs and flour and chocolate are whisked together you will get a decadent dessert.

My life has been that way as of late.  Potholes have met me every other day just when I thought the path was paved ahead.  This is not a sob story, but rather a time when I am trying to cling to what I know, which is that if I string words together, it might make a little more sense to me.  And I like to share, my heart and my food.

Instead of chocolate cake tonight it was cilantro, mint, and shredded carrots.  It was ground lamb in my cast iron pan and a quick round of cous cous.  It was lemon, shallots, and Mediterranean olives.   And I looked like Golem eating it in the corner of our living room by myself.  It was missing something though.  So I took it back to the kitchen and threw in my favorite spice: cumin.  Ah yes, that was it, and I longed to find the “cumin” to fill in the potholes of this New Year.

My dear friend, Megan, left a TED video on my FB wall during Christmas Day.  She is one of the more intentional people in my life, so I knew this was not a video to watch while brushing my teeth. However, I didn’t know it was indeed a gift waiting to be opened.

Brene Brown is the researcher featured.  But she is a researcher on TED, which means something entirely different.   Megan left a simple note accompanying the video, “thought of A Beautiful Mess.”  Okay.  And I watched.  I laughed. I almost cried. And found actual research to back up the last five years of my journey. Read More »

In response: For the Love of a Cast Iron Skillet

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My husband gave me a cast iron pan for Christmas.  It’s back-to-the-future at our home as this past winter we established our little urban farm.  We are trying to do as much as we can on our homestead which includes seven vegetable beds, six chickens, and making as much from scratch as we can (including body scrub and chicken stock).  As spring manifests itself I finally mustered up the courage to experiment with the new skillet. I figured that I can try to join the ranks of thousands of years of fabulous cooks.

We seasoned it (a process I will not detail here). We made bacon in it.  We roasted a chicken with maple syrup and balsamic vinegar. It was great.  However, I began to notice as we cleaned it that the seasoning (a coating) was coming off.  I frantically ran to my anxiety engine (I mean Google) and typed in various versions of “cast iron skillet coating coming off.”  As I read through various sites’ responses, I was caught off guard by the secret society I had unknowingly entered into.

(said skillet)

Everyone had opinions and ways of “doing” this cast iron thing. People said season it again, but then others said don’t season it at all. Some wrote to cook bacon in it many, many times, others bread… Use a metal spatula, others said wood. Use soap, don’t use soap.  I was in another world that was making my head spin. Read More »

Falling in Love with Food

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Last night I had the pleasure of hosting a living room full of women who wanted to fall in love with food.  We had a food meditation, shared stories, and learned a lot.  One of my favorite things about A Beautiful Mess workshops is when the women teach each other.  We have so much wisdom in our bodies and souls and it would be a shame if I did all of the talking.  At the end of the night, 2 ladies stuck around and we watched Food, Inc. which is a great documentary about the food industry in America.  Add it to your netflix list if you haven’t — it’s worth seeing.  Thanks for coming out ladies!  It was my pleasure having you!

I am looking forward to the next workshop coming up on Feb. 20th – a recovering perfectionism workshop. There are still spots left! Check it out on the events page.

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The good Christian answer is that inner beauty is all that matters, but if you pay attention to society, some Christians might be fooling themselves.  Actions speak louder than words in this case.  Looks have become everything and I’m not even talking about body image — I’m talking about our relationship with food.  Food has taken center stage lately with documentaries like King Corn, Killer at Large, and Food, Inc. courting the topic like a celebrity. Food has been around much longer than the age of celebrity, but since WWII it has taken a similar detrimental route. Just like the pin-up girls in war times were lusted over and pined after (and now has become a multi-billion dollar industry) so can a person lust, want, crave, indulge, and become addicted to food.grocery-store

When you walk into a grocery store almost everything you see has been picked over, cleaned, sorted through, and genetically modified for your eye-seeing pleasure. Now this also depends on where you live.  Take for instance Beverly Hills, California vs. Watts, California… based on zip codes and incomes, delivery trucks are ordered to drop off their best produce in the best neighborhoods.  The produce does look different, but that is another very important blog (stay tuned).

Appearance is everything.  We will eat a good looking tomato that tastes mealy and gross (or a zucchini or apple, etc.)  because it looked like it was “supposed to.” This summer we grew our own and they split due to too much watering (I was really taking care of them).  They looked weird and diseased — you would have never found one of these in a store.  But they tasted heavenly. It was like eating candy.  I began to realize that this is how God intended food to be and maybe I wouldn’t crave “guilty pleasure” food if I knew what real food tasted like.tomato-splitting

But what is real? I’ve talked with numerous women in different small groups and Bible studies and they tell me that the most invested dialogue they have at a night’s meeting is not about the Bible — it’s about the scale.  No they don’t come out and say how much they weigh (cardinal sin), but from compliments to dessert to dieting there are a plethora of topics to choose from.  ”Oh I shouldn’t,” says one woman when presented with the nightly communion brownie and she is lauded for her self-discipline and good morals of avoiding temptation.  Then there is the other woman who is on her third and silent comments are made with eyebrows around the room.  She responds with her penance soon after, “Oh I am so bad.  I will run an extra mile tomorrow.”  Great. The world remains in balance.

In the same way the porn industry exploits, manipulates, and feeds addiction, so do food companies. Study after study how high fructose corn syrup and other chemically manufactured preservatives are not good for our bodies.  They add to epidemics like Type 2 diabetes and heart disease, but yet there they are on the food aisle staring back at us… calling out our name with the shiny packaging and cheap price tag.  The temptation is there, but who told us it was a temptation?

The problem is that we have turned the act of eating into a moral issue — the good vs. the bad.  We all like a bad boy at one time or another — why not indulge the fantasy… with a creme puff? Women are portrayed in commercials clad in silk pjs devouring their chocolate bars or like a herd of wild animals chasing down a truck with 100 calories inside.  No wonder — they’re hungry. We need more than 100 calories to live, but this snack is viewed as morally okay because of the calorie content despite the chemicals and preservatives. We can enact our wildest dreams as long as it’s with sugar.

Food is a moral issue, but not one weighted with a scale. It’s the behind the scenes operation that we need to examine in a faith based context. It’s hard to visualize the small child who is working for farm Nestle contracts with as the chocolate bar melts in your mouth. Ignorance truly is bliss. Monsanto, a seed company, is slowly patenting seed after seed and making heirloom produce a thing of ancient history. They also strategically crowd out (or sue) small farmers (See Animal, Vegetable, Miracle by, Kingsolver or the documentary The World According to Monsanto).

Like the porn industry, people are working behind the scenes to make sure you don’t see it for what it is, so you have to do your homework.  As in grade school, it’s not fun, but you have to do it to get by to become aware of the answer to the problem and when we have lost our awareness haven’t we lost what makes us human? People don’t generally view the girl in the video (or guy) as someone’s daughter or son… that would make it too real.  They view her or him as something to be devoured and consumed.  In doing so, people have become commodities just like food. They become victims needing help and recovery and I mean this for those in the porn industry and the cows we will eventually eat who are standing in their own fecal matter eating corn. Corn that they were not designed to eat or metabolize so they are killed before it becomes a problem.

However, it has now become a national problem. The United States has the highest instances of both prostate and breast cancers in the world; both cross ethnic and socio-economic divides — no foody left behind. It is time to realize that this is a national crisis stemming from our food supply. No, not every case is from food, but something is going on.  Even when you’re not dealing with cancer, in 2006 112,000 people were killed from obesity — 28 were killed from terrorism. So as we talk about healthcare can we please have the CEOs from fast food joints and sugar cereals not on the food advisory board in the government? This is going to take more than a daily 30 minute jog which is all that is preached.

It is time to wake up to what is real and stop living artificial lives — in our food and our bodies.  What is really a moral issue? We need to care about more than the pounds on the scale.  We are people not pounds.